Electric Urges

The truth, restricted by my tongue,
burns behind a white cage of bone.
My bleeding heart is
                                falling
                                         to my stomach
                        throws
as it churns and            my love out as vomit.

My chest now rages with desire
hearing the calls of every primitive male's genitalia.
My conscience contradicts every craving
but is consumed by them.

As my sanity escapes little by little
my mumbled moans awake me.
I heard myself speak my father's names
with pleasure?

I disgust myself.

Grey Uncertainty

I saw the wings that carry me
I heard his angelic heart call.
Will harmonious songs play on forever
or will this fractured perfection fall?

These fabrics are no barrier,
wrapped in guilt I lay.
With my skin he tears my dignity
and my devotion bleeds away.

Three kisses scream through the hours.
My heart now refuses to be mine;
it pounds against its bloody wall
and my conscience screams in time.

His glistening face is welcoming
but I deserve his smile no more.
Consumed by unfathomable desire
I feel love for him yet am torn.

No longer am I your faithful lover,
I am but a twisted girl undercover.
This white morning was my destruction
and this black night, my goodbye.