To You, From You

And if I could see a promise kept of your silver smile,

Maybe it would stop the sun from looking quite so bright.

It’s been blinding my tears, every golden sunrise,

And now I’m fallen, sick and tired.

My head’s sick, tired and spinning,

Everything’s hitting

The walls inside.

Look behind,

The corners of my sordid, twisted, disappearing mind.

Too many empty words that lie,

When you read everything I want to shout in my eyes.

Wonderful Christmas Time?

Take this pretty mistletoe and live under its prying eyes.
Dreams filled with wistful, dying breaths and excruciating sighs.
The frosted windows scream cold into your breath,
With your arms around me, aim it at my neck.

I Won't Tell A Name

My irises land on you, hard to look elsewhere when you look like that

Look straight back,

Just to glance away, look away, now fixated.

Replace recurring tears, try to keep still

My eyes set straight, looking straight, into my bedroom walls.

Don’t trust my smiles on the last day of my year

Ignore forced laughs, a heavy chest nobody sees, masked.

Simple to speak, difficult to be true

Words that could save me from dying over you.

Dry Floods Of Emotion

Perfect lies cried out, lying here,

Staring at eyes that can’t cry her tears,

Arms holding, but out of reach,

Euphoric screaming, feel him breathe.

Hands entwined, possession warm,

Everything so right but entirely wrong.

Shrill But Gentle Dreams Of You

Your voice rings out,

My heart races, heavy.

Look in my eyes,

Smile one more time. Early

Sky turns blue, crying

Like the pictures in my mind.

Flooding heart of red,

Anger, pain, obsessed.

The flattering utterances escaped in song

Drowned all doubt that evidently belonged.

Bitter Fire

Cold, blue light, shards stretched across the wall

Prison of white, intoxicants fed so she won’t fall

The nurse descends, holds a blade in her hands

The only difference is this death’s faster.

Take my hand and shatter the glass gate bars,

Jump to the ground, cracks appear between us.

Words you spoke, I tasted, advice taken from her.

For what? Now I lay broken, hopes flown

Out the life preserving window.

Fast-forward the movement, restless torture.

Nothing physical to push away. Held, transparent tears,

Ashamed, a liar acting with a smile

Hoping for regret so you’ll hold me a while.

Fidelity Ended

Colours of the sky remind me of you.

Walking through a wonderland, stop just stare,

Listen, wind and birds, I hear you smiling.

Hold me, kiss my forehead again,

Please, once.

Our Sky To A Child

Apprehensive footsteps, slipping on washed-out glass,

Fragile legs, shattered months gone past.

Embrace her, lift her, cascading in the shadows,

Trembling, warm beating, sitting frozen in black snow.

Walking on wood, lost in the rings,

Silver sitting alone, on the window sill.

Perverse representation of a love made of stone,

Mutual hatred of the lost one, now you feel at home.

How is he surviving with the bruises on his chest?

While is father breaks to hide, when he knows he’s at his best.

Strangled, thrown and beaten, in our unsurpassed dream,

His nightmare of reality, how much better can it seem?

No mislaid remembrance of the torture, but his heart still bleeds for him.

Commorancy safe and warm, a preference of his.

With evil as his role model, you run tears as long as you can,

He’s your son but you hate him, because he chose his dad.

You Know When It's The One

A laugh, gentle half,
Slowly move apart, 'til you're searching,
The one look I can feel, I hear a heavy breathing.

A whisper, quicker,
Intently I listen, convincing words spill out,
An impressive breath of hours.

It's Getting Stronger

Darkness surrounding, my eyes don’t look for you. 
Haze of a feeling, hiding amongst us is truth. 
Take this water; let it burn us, until we fall down to sleep, 
Cut my tongue and my throat, unable to speak. 
A life of such inaptness, when I cannot adjust, 
Is a torture that I’m finding, I’m falling in love. 
A heart that is aching can be content with its pain, 
When my eyes are able to look upon your face.

You're Not All That I Can't Get Out My Head

Obsessed, addicted, I’m unsure.

A craving of desire for your touch and for, the smoke

that is blinding, to our senses and our insides.

Take me, again, faster this time.

Wrap up securely for the dark winter light, the smoke

will save us now, from our senses and our insides.

So fresh, the smell, a smile grows.

This is what our lives live from until it shows, the smoke

that we survive, with our senses and our insides.

It feels so different, from anything,

a new found love for our intimate sharing, my love

it surrounds me, or our senses and our insides.

Love Won't Melt Away With The Winter

Dread and doubt fall with the snow

And the joy of holding your hand crawls through me with the cold.

A smile, so gentle upon your face,

Reminds me of the trust that we have hidden in this place.

A white, white landscape of our handsome town,

Cannot look beautiful in comparison to you.

Just know that when I’m standing at your side

There are three fragile words still hiding in my mind.

Ice and frost block out the girls that look our way,

A barrier against lust that I hoped we’d never feel.

We could slip and we could fall, and drown in the darkness

But I’ll keep holding on, there’s no way we’re going to lose this.

Hold me again, keep me warm in comfort.

Kiss me again, keep me believing in my heart.

Can we lie on the floor in front of the fire?

Keep whispering those jokes, when I love that you’re liar.

Return To Life

Swan, wholly white, like frost,

Sits still on the black water, ominous

Waves that surround him

Lapping soothingly, threatening.

He bows down to submerge his head,

Count 1, 2, 3 he could be drowning, dead.

I imagine him dying slowly

But he re-surfaces without stain,

To keep on living again.

This is it.

Something taken hold of me,
I begin to speak my mind as I'm running,
As I hide from this.

Although I feel I've lost control,
Been taken over by substances, stirring.
I can feel the truth.

There's a burning inside,
It seems unnatural, like a spell, consuming,
It's a pressure on my chest.

This is not what's real,
I've been told of love, how it feels, moving,
In a circle to have it, yours.

Doubt surrounds me, only now.
Perhaps, maybe, disillusioned of everything,
Before. This is it.

No-one has had me,
Like you did tonight, utterly, completely.
Given myself to you.

Euphoria, pleasure of discomfort,
It felt so right, comfortably entwined.
To be with you, move with you.

Talk

Tell the sky your secrets,

Whisper them to the stars.

They’ll all listen in silence,

To you spilling out your heart.

Tell the trees your regrets,

Shout them to the leaves.

The one that falls for you to catch,

Tells you life’s better than it seems.

Tell the wind your worries,

Scream them to the air.

It will blow them all away,

And you’ll no longer care.

So tell me about your past,

Whisper it all to me.

I'll listen to everything you have to say,

Whatever that may be.

Message

Daddy, you scare me,

When you break our lives,

And you swear at us in your rage.

Daddy, I love you,

But I cannot speak,

Of the problems on my tongue, that I know will fade.

Mother, I miss you,

But you sit next to me.

Why is it, that you still seem so far?

Mother, I dont know you,

And I’m scared I never will,

Because of the secrets you hide within your scars.

You may understand me,

But I feel too afraid,

So let me keep living this torturous charade.

Dying Trees Of Gold

Dying trees of gold,

Drop the small parts of their souls,

To to the turning ground of autumn.

And I lay down, dying, waiting

To let go of the parts of me

That I promised myself I would not let you see.

Hidden by the red skeleton leaves

Amongst the living, broken trees

I’ll remain forever, until the summer

When my soul flourishes back within me

Regrets Leave In 'The Fall'

Regrets keep glancing over my way,

I sit watching the autumn leaves,

And wishing away those memories.

Silhouetted against the evening sky,

Let’s stop and stand under the streetlight,

In the pouring rain,

And kiss until the sun comes up again.

Fallen Too Far Into Happiness

My mind wanders and the world around me feels blurred,

Deeper I breathe and it fills me, slowly, quickly

Until, I laugh at everything I see.

My head, spinning, yet I feel languid and listless,

Consume me into blissful sleep, steal light, ‘til dark

Again. Suddenly reality is harsh.

A terrifying urge pushes me, I can’t stop,

Inebriations swallowed down, slowly, quickly

Scared, what follows is euphoria.

Ghost of a shadow, haunts me when in this state,

Yet he tells me nothing of worth, steals light, ‘til dark

Again. I miss the gentle words he spoke.

Ecstasy compels me through to you, your body

And soul become mine to enjoy, slowly, quickly

Until, exhaustion catches up with us.

Now, we have fallen too far into happiness

Mistaking insobriety, as bliss, ‘til dark

Then, the veil is drawn back and the truth hits us hard.