Return To Life

Swan, wholly white, like frost,

Sits still on the black water, ominous

Waves that surround him

Lapping soothingly, threatening.

He bows down to submerge his head,

Count 1, 2, 3 he could be drowning, dead.

I imagine him dying slowly

But he re-surfaces without stain,

To keep on living again.

This is it.

Something taken hold of me,
I begin to speak my mind as I'm running,
As I hide from this.

Although I feel I've lost control,
Been taken over by substances, stirring.
I can feel the truth.

There's a burning inside,
It seems unnatural, like a spell, consuming,
It's a pressure on my chest.

This is not what's real,
I've been told of love, how it feels, moving,
In a circle to have it, yours.

Doubt surrounds me, only now.
Perhaps, maybe, disillusioned of everything,
Before. This is it.

No-one has had me,
Like you did tonight, utterly, completely.
Given myself to you.

Euphoria, pleasure of discomfort,
It felt so right, comfortably entwined.
To be with you, move with you.

Talk

Tell the sky your secrets,

Whisper them to the stars.

They’ll all listen in silence,

To you spilling out your heart.

Tell the trees your regrets,

Shout them to the leaves.

The one that falls for you to catch,

Tells you life’s better than it seems.

Tell the wind your worries,

Scream them to the air.

It will blow them all away,

And you’ll no longer care.

So tell me about your past,

Whisper it all to me.

I'll listen to everything you have to say,

Whatever that may be.

Message

Daddy, you scare me,

When you break our lives,

And you swear at us in your rage.

Daddy, I love you,

But I cannot speak,

Of the problems on my tongue, that I know will fade.

Mother, I miss you,

But you sit next to me.

Why is it, that you still seem so far?

Mother, I dont know you,

And I’m scared I never will,

Because of the secrets you hide within your scars.

You may understand me,

But I feel too afraid,

So let me keep living this torturous charade.

Dying Trees Of Gold

Dying trees of gold,

Drop the small parts of their souls,

To to the turning ground of autumn.

And I lay down, dying, waiting

To let go of the parts of me

That I promised myself I would not let you see.

Hidden by the red skeleton leaves

Amongst the living, broken trees

I’ll remain forever, until the summer

When my soul flourishes back within me

Regrets Leave In 'The Fall'

Regrets keep glancing over my way,

I sit watching the autumn leaves,

And wishing away those memories.

Silhouetted against the evening sky,

Let’s stop and stand under the streetlight,

In the pouring rain,

And kiss until the sun comes up again.

Fallen Too Far Into Happiness

My mind wanders and the world around me feels blurred,

Deeper I breathe and it fills me, slowly, quickly

Until, I laugh at everything I see.

My head, spinning, yet I feel languid and listless,

Consume me into blissful sleep, steal light, ‘til dark

Again. Suddenly reality is harsh.

A terrifying urge pushes me, I can’t stop,

Inebriations swallowed down, slowly, quickly

Scared, what follows is euphoria.

Ghost of a shadow, haunts me when in this state,

Yet he tells me nothing of worth, steals light, ‘til dark

Again. I miss the gentle words he spoke.

Ecstasy compels me through to you, your body

And soul become mine to enjoy, slowly, quickly

Until, exhaustion catches up with us.

Now, we have fallen too far into happiness

Mistaking insobriety, as bliss, ‘til dark

Then, the veil is drawn back and the truth hits us hard.